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Yesterday, I went to NYC to pick up my chef’s uniform. I really like going to the city, but I honestly never went when it was raining. I contemplated going for a while, but Marie made a good point that I cant just not go when its raining on school days . . . DUH!

So, Marie, Will (brother), and myself made a trek up to the train station and off we went.

When we arrived in Penn Station, we hit up an SBUX and got holiday lattes. RED cup is back! I got the gingerbread which is SO much better than the pumpkin spice latte IMO.

It was cold, and rainy and windy. Luckily we all bought umbrellas, but they were CRAP umbrellas which snapped and turned inside out more than I could handle.

When we finally got to the uniform shop I was disapointed to find out that they didnt have my size jacket šŸ˜¦ I did pick up a lot of the other things I needed like my bar towels, aprons and . . . pants. I have a story about them, but I will save it for another post.

We started walking back toward the train station in hopes to find food. But, we were getting antsy and decided on Fork & Spoon which was a wholesome fast food eatery. They had a good selection, but I kind of wished we went somewhere where we could try something we havent tried before. I got some random food from the hot bar, kettle chips and HORRIBLE tasting tea that thank goodness came in a glass bottle I could use over again.

We decided to check out Macy’s before we headed home. Up on the 9th floor, they had all of their Xmas stuff set up. Lots of neat things. I started getting excited for the holidays.


We headed home right after . . .

Today I Learned . . .

  • Traveling in the city on foot, especially in the rain & snow is going to be a BITCH!
  • I need to spend a serious dollar on a QUALITY umbrella.
  • That each time I go into the city, I feel a little bit more comfortable.
  • I MUST buy UGGS or my feet will numb up and die at the first sight of snow.
  • I would be LOST without the iPad to guide me.
  • Chef uniforms are incredibly unflattering . . . the shoes are worse.
  • I really am excited to do this šŸ™‚

I would definitely agree that I am the type of person that puts a lot of pressure on herself to succeed. In a way, this is good. I’ve been able to leave a job knowing how to work every department and I have gained trust and respect and a ton of knowledge along the way.

But what happens when IM in control?

This weekend, with the help of my dad I was able to apply for my first ever student loan. Previously when I was in community college, I had help from my parents or put tuition on my credit card (so stupid). I went to college just because its what im ‘supposed’ to do. I went there not knowing what I wanted or was passionate about. So I strung along and THANKFULLY found a direction, but in nothing i truly loved.But this is the big time, this is what I want.

I have to say I was completely SHOCKED about how much it will cost me in the end to borrow the amount that I needed. I mean with interest, it’s really not to far from paying DOUBLE what I needed to borrow even with the lowest possible interest rate!

I looked at my monthly payments which work out to ~$380 per month for 8 years.

EIGHT YEARS!

I know some of you have been there done that, but I just need to express the pressure I now feel.

This means that I have to come up with that amount of money PLUS my regular expenses, PLUS possible commuting costs if I get a job in the city. I have to make sure I do something that is able to handle all of this financially.

And so. . . . I’ve decided to become a stripper instead of go to school.

. . . .kidding šŸ˜‰

It took a lot for me to reassure myself that everything would be ok going into this a bit free spirited. I told myself that no matter what if nothing but knowledge comes from this, I will be ok where I’m at and have time to figure things out.

But, the chokehold of finance really put a damper on that.

I’m not saying that I was just going to graduate then hang out for a while and see what happened. But I really didn’t want there to be this scary elephant in the room.

I know ill be ok, but again it’s the fear of the unknown that kills me. The fear that I will be struggling. The fear that I wasn’t good enough to get a job good enough to pay my bills.

On the other hand, it might be a good thing as it is somewhat of a positive stress or motivation. I am willing to work hard and I am willing to put myself out there to follow my passion.

But jeez . . . Money Sucks! šŸ™„

Thank you for listening to today’s rant.

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I obviously have a million things flying through my head since I have been accepted to Natural Gourmet Institute and will be going in less then 2 months! There has been one thought that’s been shining through all of the craziness and it seems to have a stronger presence then the rest of my thoughts. Its clear now that is that its coming from my Inner Voice

I started thinking about how incredibly busy I am going to be physically and emotionally. I need to keep up 2 days of commuting, studying, reading, practicing cooking, along with a full-time job. Not to mention all of the things I am doing now like dishes, cleaning, laundry, finances ect. Oh, and in case you we’re wondering, blogging will have plenty of time while I’m on the train šŸ˜‰ *slaps high five to 3G*

I envision myself ragged and tired and always on the go. I see no time for fun things in my life (though I consider the school fun, thankfully). I see stress, financial worries and no ENERGY. This scares me šŸ˜¦

Now, maybe I’m greedy . . . But I want it all! I want to be a top student. I want to contribute and show them ALL I GOT. I also want to stay on top of things at work. I want to keep up with things in the apartment. I want to keep up with my relationships with Chris, family and friends. I still want to do fun things with the tiniest bit of money I will have, if any.

Me: How am I going to do this?

Inner Voice: Well, the only way your going to do this all is by making sure you take care of yourself. In fact, if nothing else, as a student . . . You have no CHOICE but to take care of yourself!

That is absolutely correct. Above all else, I must find time to take care of myself.

I must create time to exercise my body in a way that is enjoyable.

I must take DAILY time to sit in silence with my thoughts.

I must live in every moment I get to spend time with the people I love.

I must feed my body in a way that will give me strength, energy and emotional well-being.

My body and mind are the vehicle that will be getting me where I need to go. I must bring fourth the best in order to handle everything going on in my life.

Something is clicking here. This is something that I am choosing to do for MY life. For once, I’m not on anyones watch and I am FULLY responsible for my success or failure here. For once, I feel like I have a profound reason to start taking care of me.

THIS is priority #1 and it must start NOW!

Well, after half applying to school, I rushed to get the other half in the mail. And though I haven’t received anything back yet. I sent some nosy emails to admissions and found out . . .

I’ve been accepted to Natural Gourmet Institute!

Of course, this is assuming that everything goes peachy with the student loan. The good thing is, not only did I get accepted, I was lucky enough to somehow slip into the Fall part time semester of this year!! I for sure thought I wouldn’t make it.

There are SO many things running through my head right now . . . More on that later in the week.

Chris and I decided to go to LongHorn Steakhouse for an impromptu celebration dinner.


They were having a special for $29.99 which gets you an entree, salad and either a dessert or appetizer to split. We went with the appetizer. They only had 3 choices so we decided on the Texas Tonion.


I had the AWESOME Sam Adams Octoberfest beer. I’m falling in love with Sam Adams . . . Chris said I’m lucky he’s dead šŸ˜‰


The entrees weren’t impressive. I ordered a filet crusted with fontina cheese. I will never order a steak crusted with cheese again. The fontina cheese was just so bitter and totally clashed with the steak. I scraped it right off!


I had a great time though. One of my favorite things to do is go out to eat with Chris. We always have a great conversation and were always giddy about the prospect of food.

By the time the entrees came, we were actually stuffed! We each took half our steak and potato home with the intention of making steak quesadillas tonight, but he went golfing so I made a salad instead.


I’d just like to mention that I took that picture BEFORE I put the rest of my chopped up baked potato in there. Laugh all you want. It had substance! šŸ™‚



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  • Ayla: My easiest dinner recipe? PB + banana sandwich. Takes 2 minutes which makes me a very happy girl.
  • kristisn: Yum! That looks like a great dinner.
  • Kate D: After two scarring experiences stuck in big city rush hour traffic (facing the wrong direction) while on vacation with my parents I totally understand

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