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Yesterday was an an awesome day. Unplugging really made me realize how much I fill every gap in my day with the internet. I need to create some guidelines for this so I can stop and smell the roses while my life starts changing. Anyway, I also think it was especially awesome because it revolved around food šŸ˜‰

I’m not going to lie, I ate a lot. There were times that I over ate, but I was well aware of it. Part of me was just trying to enjoy the celebration, and another part of me was trying to do a little experiment.

Ever since my scary run in with sugar, I vowed to make a change for my health. I fed myself better and I faithfully took my vitamins all week. The result was that I ended up having MUCH more energy throughout work, I slept better and I genuinely craved exercise. As busy and as stressful the week was, things felt better.

Yesterday I ate things that weren’t so healthful. Fast food, beer, pastries ect. I actually don’t remember feeling a deep hunger all day, but I ate anyway. I had fun, but what resulted was 2.5 short sleepy type naps, fatigue, bloat and just a general feeling of gross . . . Not worth it.

I slept ok but woke up at 4am with raging heartburn and I did NOT want to get up for a workout this morning. I realized that it was my mind telling me not to go because of how drained my body was from what I did to it. Unhealthy craves unhealthy, remember? I went anyway and I’m glad I did. Running is getting easier and I am going farther and farther without stopping. It is bringing me joy šŸ™‚

I vowed yet again to feed my body better today and for the rest of this week, for my health. I felt so much better and even though I’m taking baby steps I’m learning a ton about what’s really important along the way.


Right now, I am sitting outside watching my sister play in a tennis tournament enjoying the fall weather.


Later, we will be having a cookie cake at my parents house for Chris . . . Last nights cake wasn’t enough šŸ˜‰

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On the way home from a bunch of errands, I had a profound moment in the car after I left the farmers market with $13.42 worth of vegetables. I thought about all of the things I could come up with using what I had. A bunch of options came to me and there it was . . . I was EXCITED.

For the last few years I have only focused on losing weight and being healthy. My whole life in one way or another was connected to why I wasn’t where my mind thought I should be(mostly the way i looked). If i could fix this one problem, I would be perfect and so everything I did on my spare time, and every thought I had the energy for HAD to go towards fixing myself. The funny thing is, all this time, obsessing, and energy I spent hoping to come out ‘healthy’ on the other side was actually unhealthy! This re-enforced one of my health mantras from long ago . . .

‘just because you are doing healthy things, it does not mean you are healthy’

I learned this lesson a while ago while in one of my deeper quests for this ‘perfection’ but I didn’t actually start BELIEVING it until recently. To me, this statement means that to achieve health, you must attempt balance in each aspect of the mind body and soul. You can not focus just on one and not the other you must explore and find a balance of all. I don’t think there is ever a point where I will be able to tell myself . . ‘yep! your balanced now . . congrats!’ because life is one big j roller coaster journey with ups and downs a plenty.

I’m straying from my story though šŸ˜³

Anyway, a lot of books I read brought up the point that people with a weight/diet obsession often are scared of losing it. They are scared because they really wouldn’t know what to do with themselves if they were ok, or not broken. It occurred to me in the car that I honestly hadnt been living my life acting like i was broken. Sure, i have my moments, but i learn from them now. Today, I was really doing what I wanted to do without any hidden wannabe healthy person agenda behind it. I wasn’t buying vegetables because I had to get certain things for my latest diet attempt. I genuinely wanted to use my spare time and energy to cook food!

It may seem strange, but this is so comforting to me. This really makes me feel like I am in control. I actually feel good about the direction I am going.

Thank you $13.42 worth of vegetables . . . šŸ™‚



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  • Ayla: My easiest dinner recipe? PB + banana sandwich. Takes 2 minutes which makes me a very happy girl.
  • kristisn: Yum! That looks like a great dinner.
  • Kate D: After two scarring experiences stuck in big city rush hour traffic (facing the wrong direction) while on vacation with my parents I totally understand

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