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After Thursday’s gratitude breakthrough, I have been on a high of some sort. I just feel happy. Yes I have a massive to do list and things I could be stressing about, but in the big picture . . . Life is good šŸ™‚

So I did something crazy . . .

I signed up for a 5k!

Yes, it’s in two weeks and I know I am not trained whatsoever for it, but it sounds like a good time and Why the heck not?

It’s held at the boardwalk where my usual runs are, and it is also a costume race. I’m debating if I am going to wear a costume only because I may not have time to put it all together. I had a great idea of chris being Mario and me being an ‘invincible star’ with something attached to me that sings the tune. I know you all know it šŸ˜‰

Oh and another awesome thing besides Chris doing it too is that so is my mom and my two sisters! They don’t plan to run either which is why it’s good that its a walk too.

Luckily, I was able to get to road runner to get fitted for some serious sneaks. They do this awesome free testing to see check balance, where you pronate and I even got custom orthotics! I ended up taking home these babies. I’m a fan of Saucony, very comfortable.

I was lucky enough to score some free stuff like socks, gu chomps, a hat and some pens since it was Ladies Night

I’m excited! Exercise is so much more enjoyable when you aren’t doing it for weight loss šŸ™‚

What do you think of me signing up for a 5k with zero training? Yay or Nay?


Posted on: October 8, 2010

If you haven’t already, check out the Self Discovery Word By Word Blogger Series on Ashley’s blog Nourishing The Soul.

The word first word of this series is GRATITUDE and what comes to mind when you see this word. I have to say I didn’t know what to write for this. Especially seeing amazing entries like the one from Katie but sometimes I get inspiration when I don’t expect it.

I haven’t exercised in almost 2 weeks. I don’t feel guilty about this, I swear. My body needed rest, it was raining, and the stars just didn’t align. However, this made me nervous to finally go out for a workout today as I was starting to make slow but steady progress in my running.

Mom and I decided to go to the reservoir which is always a good option. It was cold, empty and beautiful.

I told myself that I would only run for 2min then walk for 3min the whole time and if i got tired or couldn’t keep this pace, then there was absolutely no shame in walking. During one of the jogging intervals, I decided to not stop. I ran for 10min straight! I passed a family of deer on the way and I think my proud smile kept me going. I was so proud.

THEN I decided to do the same about 10min later. I put a good song on and just went for it. Can I tell you . . . I DIDNT STOP FOR 21 MINUTES! I made it all the way smiling through the hilly terrain to the very end.

I’ve NEVER EVER ran this long. This was big. I started thinking about why I was able to do this today and not any other day.

Well, the in two weeks that I didn’t exercise I took care of myself much better then usual. Vitamins, vegetables, relaxing, having a good time with friends, laughing, eating less sugar I believe that exercise is NOT the only way to take care of yourself.

Today, the sum of all of this added up to . . .


My body was thanking me for taking care of it! I think in this run today, I finally made the connection. If you take care of your body, it will show you GRATITUDE and take care of you! I would have never had the energy or motivation to do this had I not consciously made the effort in taking better care of myself the past 2 weeks. Again, something you already know but don’t necessarily believe until all of the lessons you learn snowball in your head until they click.

I believe that my body deserves this gratitude in the form of taking better care of myself. I put it through SO much hell in the past few years by dieting, overtraining, and hating it, and it always followed me through showing me signs as I ignored them in a quest of a newer ‘better’ body.

The lesson . . .

Show your body the gratitude it deserves the way it is RIGHT NOW or it will never show it back to you.

What have YOU done to show yourself gratitude?

EDIT: ok, I’m kind of sick of hearing about it now . . . Let’s move on shall we šŸ˜‰

It is gloom city out here! Cold, rainy and dark. After a long wonderful weekend, it was not easy to get my ass out of bed and go to work. Surprisingly, I got a lot done. However, that may be because my boss, much like a premenstrual woman . . . is taking something out on me without telling me why. I’m a communicator, so it pisses me off when people are mad or upset about something I may have done and don’t tell me about it. Apparently, it is easier to hold a grudge and treat me like shit until it all goes away. Whatever, I can’t worry about it.

Though, I am getting a bit worried that I haven’t gotten my official acceptance letter from school. She said around October 1st. Is today around October first? . . . Eh, I’m just getting antsy.

Apparently, all is gloomy in healthy blog land too! Unless your living under a healthy blog shielding rock, you probably have read about The Article. The one attacking the 6 popular healthy living bloggers. You can find it somewhere . . . I promise.

Your probably sick of reading rebuttals and thoughts already, but I’m going to say my piece anyway . . . .

First, I think that ANY magazine that is targeting bloggers will RARELY ever show them in a positive light.


Because more and more people are turning to free accounts of real peoples lives instead of buying crappy magazines full of advertising featuring products and lives we never want to and in most cases, cant afford to have.

I think the article is kind of mean. It showcases these women in a bad light and leaves out VERY important information. Of course you ate more then a brownie after running . . . Why in the world would someone report that you didn’t?

These women have never claimed to be any kind of specialists and have never told anyone to follow what they do for success whether it is deemed unhealthy or not and for that, I feel bad that they were put in a negative light.

The magazine is actually not helping their case because what do you think they are going to research after reading this article?

Anyway . . . .

All this aside, ALL media including blogs must be taken with a grain of salt and I understand that people who are in the midst or even slightly recovering from any kind if disordered eating should heed this advice even MORE.

But, even little old me . . . I must admit, had a hard time starting this blog up. When I first started reading healthy living blogs, a few of those 6 were the ones I read, frankly because I didn’t know that there were many others. When I started Balancing Val, I didn’t think I had what it took to be worthy of having my own blog because I didn’t fit that same mold as them.

It led to my most popular post DO I FIT IN HERE?

I quickly realized that having my OWN voice was important . . . No matter how many chia seeds I DIDNT have in my repetitive bowl of oats. I like where I am, and that I can be ridiculous self šŸ˜‰ There are SO many blogs out there that you and I relate to better. Just because they arent wildly popular does NOT mean that their worth in this community is any different. No one should be the same and I really enjoy how the differences in us round out this community.

Honestly, I still read these popular blogs. They have done some hard work marketing themselves to the point that I just like reading them for interest and not imitation. I absolutely don’t hold any of them accountable for my successes and failures, and neither should anyone else.

Like a lot of people, I think that this article raises some very interesting discussions and thoughts. I think the main thing we all can take away is . . .

No matter what, people should be themselves . . . Always!

What are YOUR thoughts?

Yesterday was an an awesome day. Unplugging really made me realize how much I fill every gap in my day with the internet. I need to create some guidelines for this so I can stop and smell the roses while my life starts changing. Anyway, I also think it was especially awesome because it revolved around food šŸ˜‰

I’m not going to lie, I ate a lot. There were times that I over ate, but I was well aware of it. Part of me was just trying to enjoy the celebration, and another part of me was trying to do a little experiment.

Ever since my scary run in with sugar, I vowed to make a change for my health. I fed myself better and I faithfully took my vitamins all week. The result was that I ended up having MUCH more energy throughout work, I slept better and I genuinely craved exercise. As busy and as stressful the week was, things felt better.

Yesterday I ate things that weren’t so healthful. Fast food, beer, pastries ect. I actually don’t remember feeling a deep hunger all day, but I ate anyway. I had fun, but what resulted was 2.5 short sleepy type naps, fatigue, bloat and just a general feeling of gross . . . Not worth it.

I slept ok but woke up at 4am with raging heartburn and I did NOT want to get up for a workout this morning. I realized that it was my mind telling me not to go because of how drained my body was from what I did to it. Unhealthy craves unhealthy, remember? I went anyway and I’m glad I did. Running is getting easier and I am going farther and farther without stopping. It is bringing me joy šŸ™‚

I vowed yet again to feed my body better today and for the rest of this week, for my health. I felt so much better and even though I’m taking baby steps I’m learning a ton about what’s really important along the way.

Right now, I am sitting outside watching my sister play in a tennis tournament enjoying the fall weather.

Later, we will be having a cookie cake at my parents house for Chris . . . Last nights cake wasn’t enough šŸ˜‰

Let me just point out that the title of this post is merely just meant to be funny . . . .

I want to start out by explaining my first week of true intuitive eating. After I read the book, I immediately felt a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders. I was on a cloud and I saw the world in a whole different light. I was excited about the little things, the possibilities, the places I could go and every living moment was filled with joy. For one week, I accepted the place I was at in my life. I was hyper-conscious of listening to my body and fed it what it wanted and exactly how much. Life was good and it showed.

Then . . . It wore off.

Lucky for me, that week left a footprint so big that i was changed enough forever, but things have never been like that first glorious week. So what gives? Well, my guess is that i was SO excited that things clicked for me so quickly after such a short period of time that I thought I was cured. What I realize now is that the hyper-conscious state I was in, and the excitement of a new world was in fact, a distraction of the true issues going on. Don’t get me wrong, life has changed dramatically, I don’t binge anymore, I don’t really put labels on food, and I can’t remember the last time I actually stuffed myself to the point where I was a 10 on the all mighty hunger scale.

But, I do still find myself slipping back into some old habits sometimes by not eating what I truly want, and and slowing down enough to honor fullness, and using food sometimes to cure other things rather then hunger no matter if what I’m trying to cure is deep and involved, or as simple as boredom. So I question why?

I notice that when I see or read about people that have been through the same thing . . . The people that are past the huge hurdles and are closer than i am to loving and accepting themselves are feeding themselves well. The people that have ‘released’ all or most of their excess weight because they love themselves enough to take care of themselves. Most of their meals are healthful foods like fruits, vegetables, nuts & seeds, whole grains ect. Don’t get me wrong, I obviously love these foods and i know they dont eat like this all the time, I know that I am just making a general statement. I’m really not trying not to compare myself to others again either. I’m just wondering why I’m not there yet. What is holding me back from myself?

Sure I eat healthy more often than not, but it doesn’t always come easy. Maybe I am still using food to punish myself? I’m sure there is deeper issues in there and I may even know what some or most of them are, maybe it’s that I have trouble processing them and moving on?

I think I need help. I don’t like asking for help, never have. Ive always been incredibly independent and never really showed weakness. Asking for help always meant weakness in my head. I never had anyone truly point on my issues and force me to work on them. I always tried to do it myself, or just take the easy way out and avoid them. Maybe I am weak though, at least when it comes to this, that’s ok right.? . . So maybe I should just get help so that I can be stronger. I deserve that don’t I?

Have any of you asked for help in this process of loving and accepting yourselves? or did you walk alone?

Well, I can’t say that I didn’t have a struggle doing this, and I also can’t say I am completely ok with putting myself out there like this, but I am doing it anyway.

Head over to Faces of Beauty to check out my day in the spotlight. And if your brave enough . . . . JOIN THE MOVEMENT and be the change you want to see.

We all are beautiful!

I really like writing stuff. I am always looking for a way to show my opinion on something or chime in on a topic that I find interesting. This is the 3rd blog that I have started with the main theme of ‘balance’. The first two failed because maybe I got ahead of myself and thought that I was knowledgable on the topic and that all of my posts should be teaching something about it. Of course, that didnt happen and when I came across a challenge, I didnt want to post anything because I felt that it would take things in the opposite direction.

I would like to call this a Healthy Living Blog , but sometimes I dont feel like I fit in. Mainly because when I look at most of them, I see the following trends . . .

* Runners
* RD’s, Health/Wellness Coaches
* Vegetarians & Vegans
* Amazing Travels
* Amazing Food/Restaurants
* Cute Little Dogs, Husbands and Apartments

Dont get me wrong, all of these things are very interesting to me and maybe I am a bit jealous of those things. But the point is that I really cant say that I harbor any of these trends in my daily life. Sometimes that makes me feel a bit inadequate, honestly. I feel like some bloggers have the perfect life. Sometimes I feel like people wont care about what I have to say because I feel like I am so different. I do know however, that this is just me being a little insecure and of course the feeling, or ANY feeling heightens in pms week when I am super emotional. I also know that I am not blogging for other people right? I shouldn’t be striving to be like anyone else. I mean isnt this supposed to be about me? Maybe in a sick way I feel like if I adopt some of these things, then I will finally feel like I am healthy?

Err . . . I am sure I will find my voice in time, it just feels like a bumpy ride, especially when I first start a blog. This is about the time I give up unfortunatley. Maybe something will click along the way if I keep trying. I mean, my life is about to change so rapidly when school starts that I am SURE I will have plenty of more exciting things to blog about, but for now . . . this is just me.

Me who . . .

* Can barely run more then 5min without stopping to walk
* Works for a Chiropractor
* Travels usually to the same places every time
* Is so incredibly random at times that who knows what post is going to pop up here
* Doesnt have a high tech camera to take awesome pictures of food
* Struggles with body image every day
* Doesn’t consistently exercise
* Eats meat on most days
* Is trying to find balance by digging through good bad and ugly

I just want to point out to not take offense of this post to anyone. This is not about anybody’s blog in specific. This is just me coming across the common trends in healthy living blogs and me realizing that I dont share most of them.

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  • Ayla: My easiest dinner recipe? PB + banana sandwich. Takes 2 minutes which makes me a very happy girl.
  • kristisn: Yum! That looks like a great dinner.
  • Kate D: After two scarring experiences stuck in big city rush hour traffic (facing the wrong direction) while on vacation with my parents I totally understand

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